Trailing Tangents & Delusions of Nirvana - A Ramble

Trailing Tangents & Delusions of Nirvana - A Ramble

I have been besieged

 by ‘life-thoughts’ lately…

What am I doing?

Where am I going?

 Who am I?

Who do I want to be?

 What is the purpose of this life?

Can I love again?

Is it ok to finally live without pain?

… the sort of thoughts

 that lead one to epiphanies door

but withholds the key….

I answer each probing question

as honestly as I can…

I am living

Wherever life takes me

I am me… Me

A healing blessing to all I meet

purpose? hmmmm

to live life with authenticity

yes… yes…and yes….

but those are cryptic answers –

- am I more confused now

then I was at 22? 32? 16?

perhaps… but I know more now

feel more now…

… understand more…

I think the best thing one can do

for oneself

is to just let it all go….

… the preconceived ideas

the pain… sorrow…soul-sapping ache

the bruises that mar ones spirit…

let it all go….

so, I may not be loved by a partner

not know that warm & tender certainty

when I gaze into eyes that gaze at me…

… but I have known it

and  I have learn’t to love myself

…my friends love me

(and I love them)

and that is more than some

realise they have….

I will not bring comfort & solace

strength & peace

to this world

but I love all

unconditionally

without agenda

or thought to race creed religion gender

sub-culture political preference football/soccer team….

or any of the predetermined prejudices

instilled into each generation…

I think somewhere along the way

many eons ago

the evolving human race

came to a crossroad

and ventured down the wrong path…

…we are children of the Earth

and as such have become

clouded by issues of status

materialism

philistinism…

we react to artificial stimuli

and respond in kind….

our freedom and independence

is buried under a paper-pile mountain

of ordinances regulations rules

sanctions that do not safeguard the everyday man woman & child

but rather protect those selfsame

law makers who dine with law-twisters

defend their right to kickbacks & pay rises

gazillion dollar deals

that jeopardize

  the ethical & spiritual fabric

of all humanity….

…perhaps at some point in the future

enough people will rise as one

and lift their voice

to blind bureaucrats in ivy covered ivory towers

the offspring of today’s Pontius Pilates…

… but that day will not come

if we of the now

put down our pens

silence our voices

and close our hearts

simply because

it feels too hard

because we a tired

… we are jaded…

I believe

that  the power to change

is in our hands…

… we could be the catalyst

that creates a shift in spiritual awareness

the founding stone

for a new future…

if we have the courage

to share & sing & educate…

the courage to reach out

with love & conviction

…and if we are not a whisper

of future strength & unity

at least we know

we lived life well;

Sharonlee©

15/11/11